For me over the years time just seems to be going by faster and faster…. I especially noticed this month as we celebrate 3 of the kids birthdays.

Starting with my oldest daughter….she turned 8 this month, and although she was with her dad for her birthday, i sat and realized that this little girl that I have watched go from crawling, to walking, to talking…..is now this amazing little girl.  She has the heart of gold and the personality to brighten anyones day.  I have always said that she was my sunshine.  No matter how bad anything is going, the moment she comes in and says she wants a hug and just lays in my lap like she did when she was a baby, just makes everything else less stressful. I can remember the moment i saw her for the 1st time, I just loved everything about her.  She is my pretty little princess that prances around in her dress and fake high heels, counting down the days until she can grow up. 

My other daughter who is also 8 now this month, she is slowly developing out of her shell and becoming a great little girl.  She is finally learning that her voice is ok to be heard.  Although I was not part of her life when she was little, but I know that the moment she came into my life, I knew that she was this soft hearted and sweet little girl.  She is the kid that wants your attention, and that always wants to be close to you, never letting you forget that she loves you.  Everyday she amazes me how fast she is growing.  Whenever we need a hug, she right there to give it to you.  She is my little play in the dirt with my jeans, ponytail and t-shirt little girl, trying hard to stay daddys little girl.   

One of my boys will be turning 4 this month, and I can remember when he was only 5 months old.  So bouncy and bubbly, that has definitely carried over to his toddler years.  Its great to watch him make his random faces and just so innocently ask questions that as an adult are so obvious.  I watch as he learns new things and gets totally amazed at his new found knowledge.  Hes the kid that while your sitting at the dinner table talking about our days, he comes out and say something like, did you know that it was raining today…as we all stop to think what hes talking about, we cant help but giggle.   

Now with 3 other birthdays coming up this year, I realize that my babies are no longer babies.  I watch them everyday grow grow up a little bit more.  Like many parents, i think about the future and try to picture my kids as teens or even adults.  I wonder that after all the years,  will I have done my job as a mother to the best of my ability?  Will i have giuded them to the correct path in life?  I always wonder things like that, as I am sure alot of you parents have.  Its hard to think that you could have done something different, or think about the what ifs.  I love my kids whole heartedly, and couldnt be any prouder of them, as they each have their own unique talent and ability that makes them who they are. 

Life may be difficult at times, I know that I stress out on occasion, I even understand that nothing will every be perfect, but with the life I have and the kids im raising, that I am only excited to know what each new year brings.  As these years come to pass, I will see more and more that my babies…..arent babies anymore.

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Do you remember when you were a kid on the 4th of July?

I know that I do…..I would go buy fireworks, yes they let ANYONE buy them back then.  We would be setting off Fireworks for days before and days after the 4th, because no one cared, no one called the cops, no one was worried that we would be using them for mischief.   Then the night of the 4th we would find somewhere to sit back and watch the huge shows that were going on around the city!  I can say I used to LOVE the 4th of July.  As a kid I only knew that the 4th ment fireworks and bbq’s with the family. I never knew the real meaning behind the day.  

Today I can say that I understand the true meaning behind the 4th of July.  Today is a day to give a huge thanks to everyone that has served, is serving and will serve in the Military!  These men and women, give up so much to ensure that we are able to continue to celebrate days like today.

 Because of these men and women, I am able to wake up each day with the freedom to be myself, act how I want, say what I want and think how I want.  What is even more amazing to me, is these men and women fight for us and dont even know us.  They come home from war and dont expect a thank you, or expect a medal to show that we care and appreciate them.  They simply come home, knowing that they have served their country to best of their abilities and are rewarded every time they see us as Americans walk freely and proudly.

I do have to add this however…..I am sure that there are some of you that say you are against war, that you dont agree with what is going on in Iraq….well, my response is simply this, do you know why you are able to think that way?  Do you know why you are able to voice your objections?  Do you know why you are free to protest what you dont like and fight for what you do?  It is because of the war you so dislike, it is because despite what you agree with….men and women are giving their lives to ensure that no matter what…you still have the freedom to think, act and feel for yourself.  So even though you may not agree with the war, or the fact that our soilders are out fighting….to say the absolute very least, these man and women deserve your respect!  Even if you dont agree with war, these man and women deserve a thank you. 

So today…I say THANK YOU!  To each an every military member, family member, spouse and child making a huge sacrifice!  I appreciate you and honor you and your family!  

Happy Independence day!! 

What is everyone’s plans for 4th of July?

We are going to watch Fireworks shows and bought a few for the kids to do here at home! 

I must again apologize for the lack of writing over the last few weeks!  Life has taken many turns and added extra hours to my daily schedule!

In the past few weeks, my kids have gotten out of school, my daughter took off to Hawaii for the Summer, my truck has finally been fixed and last but not least i began another job!  So let me back up and start from the beginning! 

My kids are out of school for the summer and loving every minute of no homework and sleeping in past 7am (eventhough my 2 year old didnt seem to get the memo) lol.  So far over the weeks, there has been sunburns (yes i did put sunscreen on them) one of the kids competed with the sidewalk and yes you guessed it the sidewalk won!  They have taken full advantage of being able to stay up an extra hour at night…we have found a great form of entertainment for them however, not to mention cheap!  Glow Sticks…they LOVE these things.  We pay $4.00 for 60 of them and my kids act like they are gold!  Screaming and yelling about wanting more and to turn off the lights so they can see them glow…haha, i love how kids are so innocent and amused over things that I feel we as adults take for granted.  I can say that watching my kids love the simple things in life make me realize that as an adult, sometime we get too consumed on what we DONT have instead of what we DO.  I know that I have been guilty of worrying about what I am missing out on, or what I dont have or what I want.  When in reality i know that I already have everything that I need in my life and everything else is just a bonus.  I have a husband that loves me unconditionally, I have happy healthy children, a home to live in and a good job that I can saw for the first time in a while I actually love doing!  Don’t get my wrong I think of things that I would love to have, clothes that I want to buy and all the accessories that I could possibly want in my house…..BUT for me there is no point to stress and get angry over the things that I cannot get or have or buy, instead I thank the Lord everyday that he has blessed me with everything that I could possibly need to be happy. 

My daughter has been in Hawaii now for 19 days now, and there is not a second that goes by that I dont miss that little girl. She is my sunshine she is my go to girl when I need help at home.  Not having her home is definitely like not having a piece of my heart.  On a positive note….she is having fun!  She is being a great big sister to her little sister out there….not that I am surprised.  There is only 41 more days until she is home again….and i CANT WAIT!!

After almost 4 month off of work…I interviewed for a position and was hired the same day.  Now let me explain that I was not looking for a job, I was not ready to go back to work and I had not even known about this position being open.  A friend called and said he has someone he wanted me to meet and if all goes well he would have a job for me.  So like many I was curious as to who I was going to be meeting and possibly working for…..I went to the interview, and was shocked by who was interviewing me, Ryan Harris.  For those of you that follow football you may know him, those of you that dont he is #74 of the Denver Broncos!  Needless to say I was pretty excited to have an interview, but even more excited about who I had the chance to be working for.  Now I guess I could have been blinded as to who I was going to be working for and the fact that i LOVE football may have played a role in my excitement….but I will say that the job is a great job, and after my 90 days probationary period, they pay will be great also. The perks of the job..I get to meet other Denver Bronco Players!  hahah….im such a football fan that, that is a great benefit for a company to offer!  I am 10 days into my new job, and so far it is GREAT!  I love the hours, the people and the type of work I get to do.  I am in a small office, so the caddy drama that comes with big offices and multiple women in one area is no longer an issue!  Ahhh what a sign of relief!! I am still working on my Property Management company and of course now that I am working full time, its taking off!  I have 3 homes that I am managing, with another possible one coming on board within the month and helping 2 families find a home in the area.  So i guess you could say that my day does not end at 5pm when I leave work…i go home and put in anywhere from 1-4 hours of work at home ON TOP OF my mommy and wife duties!  Nothing like a 16 hour day to make me feel like taking a nap every now and then. 

My life has definitely gotten busier and some days I feel like im going 100 mph with my hair on fire, but like I said before, I thank the Lord everyday for the things he has blessed my life with, and although there are days that I would like to sleep in or go to bed early or ask myself how I can possibly deal with everything that I have going on in my life…I know that I would not have been given the challenges if the Lord knew that I could not handle them.  Like many others, I have asked myself how He could have so much faith in me when somedays I question the faith I have in myself.   

Through everything going on, with the exception of lack of sleep I can say I am one happy mama, and everyone knows that a happy mama leads to a happy home!

until next time….. 

I apologize for the long gap in my writing…..the last few days have been BUSY!!!!

So today began for me at about 4:25am……the lovely sound of a crying 2 year old just happened to wake me out of a much needed deep sleep, but like many other days, i simply got up, tended to my munchkin and attempted to go back to sleep….no such luck, I laid in bed watching the ceiling fan spin for about an hour. Then at about 530am, i had to go pick up my son from his dads….because his excuse of a wife is too lazy to drive him here on her way to work which is about 5 blocks from my house….dont you love that?  So wide awake by about 545am im headed to pick up my son listening the to morning show on the radio enjoying that there is NO traffic, and not to mention i hit every green light on the way….i think that was about the only positive for being awake so early!

I am babysitting for a friend today, so on top if my 6 i have 2 more kids.  8 kids vs. me….am i crazy?  Luckily they have all been pretty good today the only major downfall is im exhausted.  They have played outside, played inside, cleaned their rooms, helped with the kitchen, put laundry away and now destroying everything…lol At least i can say i cleaned, you may not be able to tell, but i swear I did.  To top off my very early, busy day…I am going to a concert tonight with my family, which means I will probably be awake until about midnight or so….these are the days that I thank God for coffee..lol 

On a good note the kids are finally out of school for the summer, so in the rare occasion that I can sleep past 630, I may be able to sleep in since I dont have to wake up and get the kids ready for school. Although my baby girl leaves me here in only 4 days, I am excited to have her go.  She is so excited to see her dad and family that its almost just too cute not to be excited for her.  Everyday, she asks me to pack her bags or just wants to make sure that she counted her days right…like im going to forgot to send her clothes or take her to the airport..lol, that girl is too much sometimes.

So over the weekend, my family and I have been going for walks around the block…no cell phones, so nothing!  Just us enjoying being together, looking around and most of all wearing the kids out!!  By the time we get home they are so ready for bed…lol I dont think bedtime has ever been so easy.  

Well I am off to get ready for my concert….hoping that despite my late night i might get unusually lucky and sleep past 8am tomorrow….hey a girl can hope right?

The past few days have been very busy for me…running errands, laundry, cleaning house, trying to manage my business without going crazy…all this with 3 boys going everywhere with me.  

Yesterday was an experience….I got to sit in the Social Security office for about an hour with people who bring their nasty kids with them.  Seriously you people….wash your kids face, especially when they have snot running down their face or dried to their cheeks….YUCK!!  How about those people in there that just let their kids run around screaming like little tyrants?  What is that about?  I mean I know that there are times when my kids hang out in their pj’s playing outside looking homeless, HOWEVER, I would never take them in public looking like bums, obviously needing a bath with snot all over their face.  What really bugs me, is the mother was all decked out, high heels, cute stylish clothes, hair all done, makeup looking cute talking on her phone.  Lady, I have advice for you….take less time trying to look good and give your kid a bath, comb his hair and wipe the boogers off his face.  

Although that part of my day was crazy…I did manage to get a few hours by myself to go shopping and drive around in total silence…lol I had my sitter come over to watch the boys and just enjoyed walking up and down the isle of Big Lots browsing without someone asking for something or crying because they were bored.  ahhhh quiet time!!  It was only 3 hours, but it was  great 3 hours!! 

Today……… I am back to being a busy mom, I have 5 load of laundry to fold and put away, not to mention the 3 that are still waiting to be washed and dried.  Laundry is definitely my cryptonite!!  I hate it! Im pretty sure that I should vacuum the house and mop the floors….BUT not sure I have the motivation today…lol  Lets not forgot I have to pick up the school kids, then begin whats always a busy weekend.  I think that this weekend I am going to take a day and just relax…Im pretty sure that the laundry and the house work will be there regardless, so Im thinking about just being lazy Sunday….as lazy as one person can be with 6 kids running around anyway…lol

Next week begins a busy week with school finally being over, packing my baby girl to spend the summer with her dad and step mom in Hawaii.  The hardest 2 months for me =(  My baby girl gets on a plane for 7 hours ALONE while I struggle to keep my sanity until I know her dad picked her up.  Then for the next 2 month I get to interact with her by phone, which I might add is pretty impossible because she is NOT a phone person.  So I might be luck to get about 5-10 minutes out of her.

I am having one of those days…. when you worry about everything bad or crappy or not ideal.  I am going to go enjoy lunch with my boys, lay the little ones down for a nap and start clipping coupons for my next shopping trip!

You know you have a perfect babysitter when she will come to your house and babysit your 6 children in the middle of the day when 1 has an ear infection, 2 are being totally unruly, 2 are bickering back and forth and 1 is “too old for a babysitter” in his words!  Not to mention when you get home she is still smiling and asks when I will need her again…lol  This girl is amazing let me tell ya!!!

So…then what do I do when she tells me she is moving out of state?  AHHHHH short of crying, In my best mature mom voice, hold back my inner whining I said to her, “That sucks!”  There are not many 16 year old young woman that I would trust with my dog let alone my 6 children!  This girl tho…she was/is great, makes the kids meals, snacks, takes them to the park, plays outside with them, helps them with homework…and helps with laundry when everyone is napping!!  In 10 days she is moving much further then Im sure her parents would be willing to drop her off to babysit.  Now in a frantic search to find someone that can possibly replace her.  Ive emailed a few people, spoke to a couple girls, and all with the maturity of a 12 year old.  

I dont know what I am going to do….not that I go out all the time or even have the extra money to hire a babysitter, but on the rare occasion that I need to go to the store without toting 3 young kids with me, hearing “please please please mom,” the whole time, or a doctors appointment (obgyn) without a nosy 2 year old asking “whats that mama?”   How about the rare but much needed date night with my husband.  We all know that trying to have a nice quiet meal with a kid is impossible, someone always has to go to the bathroom right when your nice hot meal comes to the table, or screams something like “I gotta poop too mama!” across the restaurant when your sitting at one of those table right in the middle of the building.  AHHHHH!

I am hoping that over the next 10 days I am able to find another sitter that is as great as the one that is leaving us…*sigh*  

First of all thanks for the follow. After reading up on your posts I will definitely be following back. I only have 1 kiddo (that lives with us, I have a step-son that lives with his mom in CA), but I can relate to a few things that you’ve posted already. One of those things is the engine swap. My husband has been struggling with our Jeep engine for over 9 months now. It’s a long story, but hopefully in the next two weeks we’ll have a car again. On your post about the farm I can relate to as well. I was born and raised in Sacramento, CA, as was my husband. We now live on 160 acres in Wyoming, just outside of a town with a population of 18. We have two mules, one donkey, and 6 horses I think. No, I don’t know for sure how many horses we have. Most of them belong to the neighbours and they are always grazing somewhere on the property. Okay, I’ve gabbed your ear off way too much. Sorry, my munchkin is sleeping so I could just type. I guess the jist of this was to just say hello, and say I’m glad you started blogging and can’t wait to see what comes.

Tara